Beautiful Places

I've found myself rocking in a chair on the lounge porch. Sitting in the presence of Yosemite tourists. It's really nice to be back, in any context. Being some version of an outsider makes me appreciate more what it is that I have to readily available to me. All of the adventures and opportunities at my whimsy.

It's been a while since I have updated my blog. I took some time to read through the few posts I do have and it's  entertaining to make comparisons between where I am now and where I was when I posted last. This idea was strange to me when I first had it, but I am still not where I want to be. I am exactly where I longed so deeply to be only months ago and somehow I am still not satisfied. It makes you wonder if we can ever keep up with ourselves. Are we ever going to be able to keep up with our desires to satiate for any amount of time?

Katrina brought to my attention today that we focus a lot of energy on the "whats" in life. Places, people, things, and the likes. Such "whats" may be temporarily enjoyable but every new toy gets old. More importantly, we should realize the "hows." If what you want in life is happiness, contemplate not what will make you happy, but how you will make yourself happy. How is it that you can change your daily thoughts or rituals, with minimal energy and cultivate more happiness, joy, adventure, accomplishments or what ever it is that floats your boat. Do  what you have to do and don't let anyone, especially yourself, stop you. When we can take the time to come to peace with the idea that half the fun is in the journey, we will be able to enjoy acquiring what ever it is that makes us happy, thus enjoying more by fully knowing what we had to do to get where we are. We all have a choice each morning when we wake up. We can either enjoy the day, bring what it may, or we can hate everything and brew in the negative.

I may not, in this moment, have the mental courage to just enjoy the crickets and waining sounds of languages from all corners of the earth, but I can recognize them and am working on the inner part. I may have a different idea now of where I would like to be, but I have an idea and it's something I am willing to work for. I  have a destination and its distance is not measured in miles, meters, or feet.